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Find Your Fight

So, I was reading a really interesting blog today over at Escape from Obesity. She was asking what it is that keeps people going even when they aren't motivated. Anyhow, this was my reply, I thought I would share it here:


I got to the point in my life where I realized that I want to be healthy more than I want to abuse myself with food. When I have slower losses, or am having a TOM craving, I just have to keep in mind that I've undone the progress I've made so many times over the years, and I am just at a place where I'm sick of it and not willing to let myself do that again. 

Therapy has helped a lot. Blogging helps, I blog every day on spark, for accountability alone, and then I keep my beyondwillpower blog for the 'big things'. 

When I ask myself what it is, it's just that I'm fed up. I'm 31 and still morbidly obese. This will only get more difficult the older I get. My real dad died at 47 from diabetes complications and he pretty much died in pieces, I have high sugar, I'm not WILLING to go out like that.

Even when I don't have motivation, and when I feel less than comitted, 
I have a fight in me, and it keeps me going.

 Find your fight. 

Oh, and also, forgiveness.  ;)

There is always that little devil telling you that you blew it for the day, might as well "enjoy" yourself, but you've got to forgive yourself and move on from that very moment, because tomorrow is really very far away, and it's usually a few tomorrows before we can get back on track. Better to start off strong and immediately.
 I just can't tolerate excuses from myself another moment... 

That's my advice. What are you just not willing to tolerate 
  in yourself any more?


  1. Great post. I don't know if you listen to music when you exercise but you need to get the song Fighter by Christina Aguilera. It goes very well with your post and I find it very uplifting. That's a good question about what are you not willing to tolerate in yourself any more because I cannot think of an answer right now. I guess I'm very tolerate when it comes to myself :)

  2. I like that song :D Good idea, I generally listen to ska when I exercise. It's very peppy. :D

  3. For me it got to the point where I realized that if I did not take care of myself now, my family would suffer. That was unacceptable to me. While I am not perfect in my journey by any means, I am doing it. If feels good and is about time. I am so glad you are doing this when you are only 31. I waited way too long.

  4. Wow and Wow again. Reading this gave me that same "eye of the tiger" feeling I got when I watched Rocky for the first time. You may be only 31 yet you're wise and focused - and quite motivational. I only wish I had been as wise at 31 as you are. You're right. The longer you wait the harder it gets and it's not fun to live your life doing the same thing, like dieting, over and over and over again. It's time to just get it done and LIVE. Awesome post.


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