Beyond Willpower

So, this is my 100th post. I'm glad I'm still here. :) I've had PMS. I've had cravings I could not control, I've tracked half-assedly, I didn't exercise barely at all this week, I've eaten more to maintain than to lose, and maintain I did. augh. Now, the PMS seems to be gone and I'm ready to get back on track. Counting calories proper, exercising, juicing, eating more fruits and veggies and DRINKING WATER AND TEA (I've been very dehydrated lately). Everytime I snuck a handful of almonds (craving crunchy saltiness) I felt like my control and resolve were slipping away. But I didn't eat candy bars or junk food in general. I only ate out twice and the second time I brought home leftovers. The worst I really did was overeating nuts and I had some tortilla chips, although addmitedly more than I should have, but also WAY less than I used to. "overboard" doesn't mean the same to me as it used to, but I saw just how easily I could sl...

So, it's been about 3 weeks and until the last few days I had only lost about 2 lbs. The 230's have been a real pain, very difficult to get out of. My body is testing me, as it is known to do. This is generally the time I feel like I'm getting nowhere and give up. Not this time. As a friend says, "a plateau is maintenance in training." and that is how I'm trying to look at it. It doesn't matter if it's not coming off as fast as I'd like because it's coming off, I know what I've done to myself is tragic and it will be difficult to undo all this damage. I FEEL amazing though, I don't ever want to go back to feeling how I did before. As of today, in under a week I have lost 3 lbs. I'm down to 230 and once I lose 2 more lbs I will have officially lost more than I ever have before. In 2004 I lost 70 lbs. When I gained it back I also regained an additional 40 lbs, so even though I'll have made it back, it isn't back to where I...