Beyond Willpower

I've decided after much reflection, to go back to tracking calories. I know that it works if I stick to it, I just can't stop when I get to where I want to be. I have to track then, for maintenance. I'm honestly pretty frustrated by this, and I can't even go back to my dieting 'home', sparkpeople, because I feel they are being influenced by....well, by money. They posted this whole blog thing about how diet drinks REALLY aren't bad for you and we've all been duped! All of this based on some study that seemed to be research conducted by the american beverage institute or something with a big banner across the top for this institute (aka lobby?) and I just feel like they've sold out in a big way. It used to make me mad how they would put banner ads for pizza hut across the top of the page, but this? It's too much. Also, I know it's been a bit since I posted. I've thought about it often, about what I could say, but we've not really m...

There are some things in my life that were once priorities that have been put on the back burner. I feel like due to this medication it's pointless to try and lose since I can't seem to. But that is ridiculous because I need to be healthy whether I'm losing or not. So I need to get on track with the gf/vegan eats and exercise in a big way. (I've eaten dairy some lately and it's ADDICTIVE. No joke.)  So starting today, gf/vegan all the way. I need groceries, but I'll just eat tons of rice if I must just because I can really FEEL a difference in my body when I eat gluten. It aggravates the living hell out of my fibro, I've been feeling so inflamed lately that even just sitting here has been burning my legs and back. I need to exercise. I KNOW that it helps my fibro. Like my pain doc says, if you don't use it, you lose it with fibro. It's a vicious cycle. You lay down because you're in pain but in the long run laying around just causes more p...

So last night I was reading through some of my old blogs. My very first blog post here, "Sometimes you have to fight a battle more than once to win it."  is really ringing true right now. Just a little reminder for myself, to keep me plugging along: Sometimes I think these 'reminders' are what have kept me from regaining! This is a battle isn't it? It's worth the fight though. Today I filled out my spark goal tracking calender and I tracked breakfast and lunch already, and I have about 555 cals left for dinner. I have a long day ahead, and I had another calf spasm last night so my legs hurt still, but I'm about to do some pt, and tonight I'm going to jump on the recumbent. I'm preparing, mentally more than anything, for Monday, when I start the Biggest Loser Challenge 19 with my sparkbuddies in white lighting. :) Good luck ladies! Anyhow, the challenge is 10 weeks, and I hope that I can report a nice loss back in the next few weeks after it...

So, the daily spark blog posted this article the other day asking if people would be willing to give up a year of their life in return for the perfect body.  16% of women who were normal or underweight answered yes.  WHAT?! This is more than a bit upsetting. Someone made a really good point in the comments section, they said: " Too bad people aren't willing to give up poor self esteem, a sedentary lifestyle and unhealthy amounts of unhealthy food for a "perfect" body. 'cuz then they'd get to KEEP that year, and likely earn more of 'em...   Just sayin'  " (I couldn't find the original poster of the quote so I couldn't give credit.) There really isn't much more to say than that on the subject, it's so true. Some women would have given up graduate degrees, promotions and college degrees with honors for a perfect body. Some reason I doubt men would be willing to make these bargains. Although the pressure on them is getting worse...