Beyond Willpower

So, it's been about 3 weeks and until the last few days I had only lost about 2 lbs. The 230's have been a real pain, very difficult to get out of. My body is testing me, as it is known to do. This is generally the time I feel like I'm getting nowhere and give up. Not this time. As a friend says, "a plateau is maintenance in training." and that is how I'm trying to look at it. It doesn't matter if it's not coming off as fast as I'd like because it's coming off, I know what I've done to myself is tragic and it will be difficult to undo all this damage. I FEEL amazing though, I don't ever want to go back to feeling how I did before. As of today, in under a week I have lost 3 lbs. I'm down to 230 and once I lose 2 more lbs I will have officially lost more than I ever have before. In 2004 I lost 70 lbs. When I gained it back I also regained an additional 40 lbs, so even though I'll have made it back, it isn't back to where I...

There's a lot going on in my life right now. For starters, I got new glasses!:  Although that's not all that important. I did lose 2 lbs this week, and I've gotten up to 6 miles on my new exercise bike. I think tomorrow I'll try for 8. :) I lost my voice earlier this week, it's still not back. Makes my job difficult since it's a chatty type job.  Speaking of jobs...well, I'm getting this physical therapy right now, she's doing myofascial release on me. It's a type of soft tissue therapy for tight painful muscles. It's amazing. Anyhow, I'm doing my pt exercises at home every day and seeing her twice a week for treatment. It's just...I have so much hope. She spent the last two weeks on my legs, which are my first biggest problem. Next week she'll work on my butt/hip area because she said the reason my feet turn out when I walk is the muscles are pulled so tight they are turning my feet outwards instead of letting me walk straight....