Beyond Willpower

So, I noticed my weight fluctuating WAY too much on my old scale, I KNEW it was being FAR too kind. If a scale can 'be kind'. Anyhow, I bought a new one, and so now I see my old one was WILDLY off, and I have no idea how much I weighed at the start of the month or how much I've lost, realistically. I know I have dropped a pant size and that is usually like 15-20 lbs. So, I've probably lost about that much since before xmas. Starting fresh, I'll weigh in next week with results from this new scale. Gah!

" Acceptance is not submission; it is acknowledgement of the facts of a situation. Then deciding what you're going to do about it." So have any of you been stalling out? How are you dealing with it? For those of you who haven't yet, how are you planning on dealing with it when that time comes? I've given it some thought, and have decided against doing the juice fast. I realized it made me cranky and with my unhealthy dieting history it had the potential to take me to a bad place. I have accepted that I'm stalling out. I've reduced my cals (after first trying to increase them also with no results), increased my exercise....nothing is happening and I've decided that is okay. I've had a steady 8-9+ lb loss every month for the last 7 months or so. This happens, stalls and plateaus, they happen and they are unfortunately a part of the process. I'm glad I lost almost 70 lbs before it happened, I'm trying to be thankful for that at the very ...

So, I've been On Plan perfectly for almost 3 months. I haven't lost anything for 2 weeks. It's that time of the month though, and mine lasts FOR EV AR, so, who knows, maybe I'll have a whoosh. The thing that has me concerned though isn't that I haven't lost - so much as where I'm going mentally DUE TO the no loss. I've had a history of eating disordered behavior along the other end of the spectrum. I binge yeah, but I also have gone through periods of starvation and laxative abuse. (These things don't work out as well as you hope they will. Also they inevitably lead to binging). Anyhow, not losing for 2 weeks has almost immediately put me into the mindset of -- cutting cals. It's never so simple as oh I should cut by 100 and see after a week where that gets me. It's more like, cut by 300...and if that works, hell, go lower. I know this is the start of something bad. So yeah, I'm worried. I want to be this person: Not this pers...