Beyond Willpower

So, I started physical therapy earlier this week and although my pain is worse this week than last, I'm dealing with it a little better, I'm a bit more hopeful. Last week in comparison I had almost no pain, so it's not that bad this week, mostly waking with sore shoulders. Anyhow, since I'm feeling better, I'm exercising more. I had insane fitness goals for myself for this month. They aren't going to happen. Not yet. But, I have been doing 3 or more days of 30 mins of cardio + 1 day of strength/toning for 15-20 mins. I'm getting there. This is in my very near future: (by very near I mean I'm ordering it asap! Hopefully today or tomorrow!) I know that improving my endurance and fitness will help my pain. I'm hoping since the weather is finally getting warmer, that I can increase it all through spring, summer and fall and by next winter I can deal with the pain inflicted by the weather far better than I did this year. Which was, to be fair, f...

I've never been successful with weight loss. It's difficult to even try and imagine yourself a success at something that you've tried and failed so miserably at so many times in your life. It doesn't feel real. But, you've got to start somewhere. I'm keeping a list of my small successes and milestones. I figure the only way to get to feeling like I am a success at this, is to keep track and give myself a pat on the back for even the smallest success. They will all add up. 1.) Remain binge free for 30 days-- CHECK!   2.) Lose 20 lbs -- CHECK!   3.) Make exercise a part of my life -- CHECK!   4.) Stay 100% On Plan throughout Thanksgiving. -- CHECK!   5.) Get back down to the weight requirement so that I can use the elliptical (250 lbs) --   6.) Get back to my (2nd) shocking high weight, 275 lbs-- CHECK!   7.) Get back to my FIRST shocking high weight, 260 lbs! -- CHECK!   8.) Remain binge free for ANOTHER 30 days! -- CHECK! (60 days down!)   9.) ...