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A difficult year....

I wish I hadn't had such a difficult year. I wish I hadn't abandoned this blog and myself in the process.

As you can see from my ticker I've gained all my weight back.

Well, it's time to start over.

Today is day two of a juice/raw food cleanse that I plan to do for 3 days. (Basically while I"m off work). Joey bought me some tupperware, and I plan to spend today and tomorrow bulk cooking. I'm going to freeze a TON of stuff to take to work for lunch. Lunches at work are costing me about 100$ per month and countless pounds. When I worked part time it was so easy. But now....at work I don't bring food, so I eat pizza, then I come home and I'm just exhausted and I want to eat and not have to clean up a mess, so I eat out, probably something fried and unhealthy.

Well, as of yesterday, that is stopping. My fibro is really getting to me with this weather and all the gluten and dairy I'm eating. Hence the cleanse, I just need all that crap out of my system. So far so good. No better day to start than nye in my opinion. A new start for a new year.

I feel like I've let my readers down. I just disappeared. It was so hard to struggle publicly.

But here I am. Completely willing to struggle publicly. We all have been there I'm sure. I've gained and lost these same 80 lbs a few times now. I know that tracking works, but I also know I don't want to track forever. (obviously) as I always stop and gain weight back. So I need to find a way to eat more intuitively, naturally. So I can do it forever. If it doesn't work I'll go back to tracking.

I plan to try to maybe at some point go back to therapy, this time for eating issues. For now if you have any recommendations for books to read on the issue of overeating I"d appreciate it if you'd leave the title in my comment section.


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  1. KatieJanuary 1, 2013 at 2:24 PM

    I don't have any books to recommend (unfortunately, because I would like to read them, too), but I wanted to say that it's great that you started blogging again. I'm in a similar position, only I gained back the weight that I lost in 2011 and haven't managed to lose them again. Usually I start over on a new blog, too afraid to admit that I've failed. This year I'm changing that. I'll be publicly failing right there with you - assuming, of course, that either of us fails, which we won't!

    I have the same issues with work as you do. I bring my lunch, but it's never enough, and then I end up starving and swing by fast food on the way home. It's expensive and is causing me to gain weight. But we can do it! This will be our year! :)

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  2. Beyond WillpowerJanuary 1, 2013 at 2:35 PM

    Katie, I found, 'the end of overeating'. I'm going to read that next!

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  3. Beyond WillpowerJanuary 1, 2013 at 2:35 PM

    Also, thanks so much for your support. Starting a new blog crossed my mind but I miss this place. :D

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  4. NikkiJanuary 1, 2013 at 9:07 PM

    I'm sorry that you've had a set-back. My mom has Fibro too and it plays such a huge part of her weight gains and losses. Bulk cooking is a great way to avoid take-out. Sounds like you've got a good plan :)

    My local library has this book that I thought interesting about binge eating:
    Food: The Good Girl's Drug: How to Stop Using Food to Control Your Feelings by Sunny Sea Gold.

    Please don't feel like you are letting your readers down. This blog is for you... it's your outlet and it can be whatever you want it to be. We're just along for the ride.

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  5. ViJanuary 2, 2014 at 9:32 PM

    I know cutting gluten and dairy has helped me physically, so much I haven't cheated once in 2 1/2 years. It also pushed me to go vegan after being a vegetarian. That's not to say I don't still have 'challenges' (I was also dx'd w/ Fibro in June), but the way I felt compared to the way I FEEL is like night and day.

    It even helped me with my compulsive overeating. A lot of my food addiction was an addiction to wheat/gluten and dairy. I still have problems w/ binging too but not as badly as I did. My cravings are pretty nonexistent.

    Good luck...it's nice to see you blogging again :)

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