Beyond Willpower

I work at a certain plus size retailer that I'm sure most of you know which will remained unnamed, anyhow... I kind of think that working there has made my weight loss that much more difficult. I find myself feeling odd when thinner people walk in, they are terribly out of place in my store. Some are shopping for gifts, others don't know we are a plus store at all until they ask if we have 'small clothes'. No lady, we don't. I find that thinner people are out there in the world, but I forget that sometimes. I'm surrounded by what I consider to be, lovely chubettes. They are my customers and my coworkers. I see them eating fondant cakes that people bring in, or cookies or cupcakes. I've only indulged once and had a piece of chocolate cake during 'that time of the month' and was having a REALLY bad day. Yet it's no excuse. I have no one to blame but myself. It's just an observation. I feel like I had gone from immersing myself fully int...

So, I just wanted to let you guys know I have been talking to the woman who runs  www.yummyplants.com  and I'm going to write an article for her site. It was suggested I write about the health benefits I've experienced since switching to a plant based diet and different things about my experiences with obesity, maybe touch on childhood obesity. It will be an article style, not blog, but I just wanted to let everyone know to check out her site, it's really great and it's for anyone, not just vegans, even if you are just looking to add more healthy fruits/veggies to your diet, it's full of restaurant reviews and recipes and also has a forum so be sure to check it out. I have another job interview on Wednesday. I'm excited, I think I would do great at this place and I feel really confident.  I'll let you all know if I hear back. Today I went looking to buy a new outfit for the interview. Sadly I've decided I'm not a huge fan of what I bought. I was ...

So I went shopping the other day. I had posted those pics in this blog post  with my before and current pics. I had gone to buy some new tank tops and also picked up that cute lavender type top. I bought two size 3x tank tops along with other stuff. I tried them on before buying them. I came home and was pretty happy with them, put them away and didn't think much about it until later. A day or so goes by and I put one on to wear around in the house with my jammie pants. Suddenly I realize that this shirt is way too big. Joey mentioned it as well, like, why did you buy new clothes that are too big? Wasn't the point that all your old clothes were too big? What is it that I see? Have any of you done this? I was just so confused, what was it that I saw when I looked in the mirror in the dressing room? What made me think those tanks fit me? I could have easily gotten a 2x. I even washed and dried them this week, nope, still too big. I think maybe I can't see myself being ...