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"Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving."

I looked at this blog for the first time in two years the other day. I wanted to reference a post in another piece of writing. I had completely forgotten that I had revamped this site, and I like its look now. I do honestly miss writing here. So, I might try and liven the joint up a bit. Check back soon!


Where am I now? I am going for a physical next Friday. It will be the first one I've had in a year and a half.  I have been gaining and losing the same 20 pounds my entire life, it seems. I have had some severe health issues in the last couple of years, like heavy shit that I'm not going to bore you with right now. Either way, my immune system decided to go bust. I have spent close to a year trying to improve it. I'm eating pretty healthy, I take vitamins now, and immune-boosting gummies, and zinc and blah blah blah. I was also suffering from chronic dehydration. Don't let yourself get there kiddie winkies. It's a bad time. I have spent the last three months or so getting on top of many other health issues too. 

My blood pressure had been giving me issues for a few months; when it got to reading 175/110, (very bad), my Dr put me on blood pressure medication. I did not want to stay on it, so I'm giving it three months of that, plus Co Q-10 and fish oil. I have been on them at least three, if not five months, depending. I have also started to exercise regularly. I started riding a bike a couple of months ago, and I love it. I eventually worked myself up to a ten-mile ride and thought I would die. I'm sure the ninety-two-degree weather did not help! *No more of that!* I'm hydrating regularly, which honestly should go without saying, but wow, drinking water has changed my life. WhoddaThunk?

Weight loss is on my mind, and I have lost about 15 pounds. I'm seeing a dietitian. She is body positive and understands that getting healthy is more of a focus for me than *just* the number on the scale. Although I won't lie - when that number doesn't budge for a bit, it still drives me crazy. That is something I'm working on in therapy, though. It's not as important as I make it. 

For those of you who have been reading here for a while, a few quick updates on past issues. My fibromyalgia is under control, and I have been able to go COMPLETELY OFF of my Neurontin. Which I'm sure will help my metabolism. My bipolar is under control, I am on a minimum of medication for it while still remaining stable. I'm taking an anti-depressant (the only one that doesn't make me manic). I'm also on an anti-psychotic (because those are a lifesaver for me), and a mood stabilizer (because apparently, I need the extra oomph to keep me stable)! I did try and go off the mood stabilizer (to improve my metabolism), hoping the other two would pick up the slack, but that did not happen, so I could not go off of it. I'm also dealing with some pretty crippling migraines, but I am figuring out just how to treat them. Hopefully, they let up soon. I'm happy with where I'm at right now. I feel pretty good. 

I will try and poke my head in here and leave you guys a message more often. :) 



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