Beyond Willpower

OMG. I am so sorry for being gone so long! Things have been happening here. In my last post I said I'd be counting calories but I just can't. I CAN'T. I mean I can, but I know I can't stick to it for the long term, so I am just trying to make better choices, stop eating when I'm full and I haven't weighed myself in MONTHS. Joey hid the scale, for both of our sake since we have scale dependent self esteem! So, some Non Scale Victories that I've had since my wedding last March 9th, on our 19 year anniv. 1.) My face is finally starting to look a little thinner: BEFORE: (at my wedding, with a friend, not sure why everything looks so shiny here) DURING: 2.) My body is finally following suit: BEFORE:  (Me getting my ring from my best woman at my wedding lol) DURING: (me rocking this dress, attending a burlesque show!:) 3.) My underwear that I had that were the biggest size I could find for my HUGE hips, are actually fitting n...

Size acceptance. Dieting. Weight loss...Can they go hand in hand? Today I shared this photo on facebook: Melissa Mccarthy has lost some weight recently, citing that she wants to be a good mom and be around for her kids. So, I guess that could be summed up by saying health reasons. I felt the need when I shared the above pic, to add a comment, about how I believe she's lost weight, and it's hard to walk that line between size acceptance and weight loss. I once suggested my blog to a friend and she said she didn't want to read it because she believed in size acceptance. This was kind of annoying, because so do I. At the same time, I have diabetes, non alcoholic fatty liver disease, high cholesterol, and I'm teetering on the edge of high blood pressure. Basically I'm dying, I get that we're all dying, I'm just dying a little faster than I should be. Given my family history, (dad died at age 48 I believe, didn't even see 50, before he was l...

So, I just wanted to let you guys know I have been talking to the woman who runs  www.yummyplants.com  and I'm going to write an article for her site. It was suggested I write about the health benefits I've experienced since switching to a plant based diet and different things about my experiences with obesity, maybe touch on childhood obesity. It will be an article style, not blog, but I just wanted to let everyone know to check out her site, it's really great and it's for anyone, not just vegans, even if you are just looking to add more healthy fruits/veggies to your diet, it's full of restaurant reviews and recipes and also has a forum so be sure to check it out. I have another job interview on Wednesday. I'm excited, I think I would do great at this place and I feel really confident.  I'll let you all know if I hear back. Today I went looking to buy a new outfit for the interview. Sadly I've decided I'm not a huge fan of what I bought. I was ...

 I just wanted to make a short post to say that I've now lost 10 points off my bmi. I was a 48 and now I"m a 38. I'm super excited!!!!:  before and during! Also, I'm growing my hair out to about chin length. Have been pullingthe front back in clippys until I can get it shaped up nicer. :D My new recumbent exercise bike came today! :D

So, I started doing the 75% raw on Saturday, my weight loss was slowing, I was losing 1, maybe 2 lbs a week if I was lucky. I'm still big enough that for my size, that is good loss, but a little slow. Anyhow, I've lost 3 lbs in the last 3 days of exercising and doing a 75% raw diet. I need to have lost 10 lbs by march 19th if I want to be on track for my four month goal of losing 40 lbs in 4 months . I'm currently at 6 lbs lost. I still need to lose 4 more in the next 12 days. Not an impossible goal. Hopefully I'll have lost a total of 5 (2 more) before this Saturday while doing this mostly raw thing. I think doing this once a month is a fabulous idea! This was my lunch yesterday: GORGEOUS! Anyhow, today was a 6 hour day at work, around hour 5 I started to hurt, but an aleve helped, which leads me to believe that I have a bit of weight bearing pain unrelated to the fibro. The weather was nice though so not much in the way of fibro pain. I'm sure the exercis...

I just realized it's been over a month since I took my last measurements and this morning I felt extra curvy so I thought I'd take them. ;)  Also, I realize the  last measurements  I posted were not totals from starting they were totals from my most recent measurement, I finally found my starting measurements so now I can do a proper tally! I have lost  5  inches off my bust I have lost  6  inches off my waist  I have lost  6  inches off my hips Total: 17 inches Total inches lost since last measurements taken: 3.5 inches

Heya, just wanted to let everyone know that I have a story over at  http://www.theplantrx.com  where I'm featured as the success story of the week. Check it out and be sure to check the site out! It's very informative! I loved the video on that site with an interview with clinton about how he went vegan after his heart surgery:

Wow. I have not been feeling well. All sorts of health issues were happening all at once. Hypomania, infected tooth, severe tummy troubles caused by my fibro pain meds, a fibro flare and severe insomnia. Through it all though I managed to not gain! Even though my satiety signals, once my mood destabilized, were ENTIRELY turned off. So strange, I googled, it seems to be a thing with brain chemicals and blah blah. So when I first noticed it and googled it, and was aware, I calmed down and dealt with the hunger, knowing it would pass once I got things under control. I'm feeling about 90% better. I think by tomorrow I'll be all better. I have FOUR doc appts this week anyhow. blah. Well, my weight has gone from 299 to 250 lbs . I am ONE measly lb away from a 50 lb loss, but, I had bought some new clothes (from target's plus section, I have not been able to fit in even their plus stuff before!) I'm generally currently a 2-3X, at target I was a 3-4X, which is fine, at le...

I've decided to finally make an 'official' vision collage. My fridge has had quotes and pics and such on it for weight loss motivation for just over a year. But I was slacking. I'm gonna put stuff like motivational quotes, pictures of myself from now, before, and in 2004 when I was about 70 lbs thinner, little happy sayings and smiley faces. It'll be a good time. I'm gonna put it on my cork board. I'll do the top half maybe? Or the side? And use it more like a timeline. Maybe fill it all up and change it around as I lose and other things become important? I don't know. I just know I feel like this will be something important for me. My cork board currently has all this stuff on it: It's mostly really old stuff I'll be packing away in my memory box, that stuff is old me, it's time for new me. :)