My life in rambles

This blog post is word vomit. That's what happens when I'm away for so long, too much to say at once!

So I moved my liquid fast from Monday to today, it's going well. I've had a protein shake and some juice and water. I made fresh carrot and apple juice for lunch and for a snack at work I had an odwalla strawberry type juice.

I had a dream last night, a nightmare really, that I had lost 2 lbs and someone at work said not to worry that I was looking a little pudgier than usual. I was mortified and screamed "I'VE LOST WEIGHT WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!?"

I'm not sure how to interpret that. I mean I guess it could go a few ways, but the most likely I think is that I'm freaking out over gaining a few lbs. I've been very strict lately, doing very well, I hope to post a loss on Sunday.

Also, tomorrow I'll be posting my blood work results and maybe a loss if they weigh me, I might as well post it. It's been six months since my last blood work, a lot has changed, including adding a medication that can raise sugar and cholesterol. :( Hopefully all will be good and I won't have those particular side effects.

In this spirit of this blog post being all over the place, I just wanted to say I bought two new pairs of jeans (Different styles as well) and both were a size 16. Big smiles all around.

Keep an eye out for my 'flank steak' bbq tofu taco recipe coming soon!

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