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On allegations of honesty and bravery...

A lot of people comment here, or they tell me privately, that I am brave for writing this blog, or they tell me that they love how honest I am, that I go in to the good and the bad. I'm not here to sugar coat things. For awhile, I wasn't blogging very often. I wasn't doing well and I felt like every time I blogged I was saying the same thing, wow, I'm off track, trying again tomorrow.

I felt like such a let down to all of you, but I know I'm not the only one going through this. Sometimes it's difficult to remember that we're not alone, there are some people who make things look so easy, and really, to me, it's just not something I can relate to. I have a friend who said he lost weight and there's no excuse for anyone because it's easy.

This has been one of the more difficult things I have ever done.

 I forget sometimes that this is forever, this is never going to be easy. EasiER at times, but never easy. Not for me and probably not for most of you. Anyhow, the point is, I was hiding, and that is not brave or honest. I promise not to go awol when I'm doing poorly anymore, if you promise to not get terribly annoyed by my posts that are about struggling. 

The last few days have been better. I'm finally on track and I hope it lasts, because I refuse to go back to where I was, I have fought too hard to regain all this weight. 10 lbs is the breaking point for me. I'm fighting, clawing my way back. I can't wait to report a loss. augh. I'm not changing my ticker until my weight has stayed the same for awhile so I know it's not a fluctuation. I get weighed at the doc on the 9th. I'm hoping to have lost some weight by then. 

Anyhow, this is my pledge, that in the future, I will be as honest and brave as you have convinced me that I am with all your kind words.Hugs, and thanks to the readers who stuck around through the struggle. I <3 you guys. 

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  1. E. JaneNovember 2, 2011 at 1:10 PM

    I think the only way we can deal with our weight loss "demons" is with honesty. Keep up the good fight and keep us posted.

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