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Long time no see!'s been awhile. I'd like to explain my absence.

For starters, I had mentioned going on Wellbutrin and that it helped my appetite....well, that turned out to be true to a degree. I did manage to lose about 30 lbs, very.....very....slowly....

But whatever, I was happy to have lost anything. Recently I was hospitalized, and taken off the Wellbutrin, but, put on Lithium. Now, I've been on Lithium in the past, by itself. So I figured this would be a great time to get off Abilify!

So, I gained about 6 lbs between the hospital and also came out without the Wellbutrin. I was on 30 mgs of Abilify, and I'm now down to 15. I'm going off slowly, but I can see that it's helping already. I can't wait to be off of it entirely!

The last time I went off Abilify (But didn't' replace it with anything else) I was stable for nine months, and in those nine months I lost 90 lbs. I went back on Abilify for the next couple of years, and I gained 130 lbs!!!! I couldn't get it off, and honestly trying was so monumentally difficult that I just sort of let it go after awhile, NOTHING was helping anyhow, so it seemed pointless to try.

So, now I'm planning on getting back to eating vegan (but no longer gluten free) once the new year hits. Also, once again, losing slow is okay, as long as I'm losing. I have serious health complications to think about with my weight these days. I plan to get back on track, get totally off the Abilify and get healthy!


  1. yay for motivation and posting again. i can't wait to get rid of our bachelor food as least most of it. my best meals when i'm doing good are lean pocket and a salad. and the page looks great! :) <3


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