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Here we go again....

Here's the hard truth. I have diabetes. i have non alcoholic fatty liver disease, I'm working my way to high blood pressure, in the hospital they figured out it was white coat hypertension but it's still not as good as it used to bed.

I feel like I'm dying, I'm rotting, from the inside out. I have been on medications that caused metabolic syndrome, making me fat after I worked SO HARD to lose those 90 lbs.  Some days my liver hurts, it will either ache, or if I bend or strain it will hurt, and sometimes it just burns. Also, fatty liver slows your metabolism, making it harder to lose weight.

Me on my wedding day March 9th, at my high weight.
(I am currently -20 lbs from here)

I'm buying a bottle of liver cleanse/detox pills tomorrow. Along with that I'm also going to juice 3 times a day and eat as much raw fruits and veggies as I possibly can as a part of my daily diet. Certain fats are good too so I will be trying to eat avocado and eggs as well, and flax (I like to add it to my smoothies).

I'm 35. Things shouldn't be this bad. :( But they are, and it's time to do something about it! I'm down to 15 mgs of abilify. Once all my 30 mgs that I've been cutting in half are gone, I'm going to start taking 10 mgs. I've had to increase the lithium to handle the mood swings coming off the abilify caused. Once I'm entirely off the abilify and adjusted, I'll try going back down on the lithium a bit, just because I'm  having some side effects that I'd rather not deal with.

In other news, I probably won't be posting until new years eve, where I will be posting about all sorts of plans for the new year!


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