Motivation or commitment?

Where has my spark gone?

So the other day I commented on a blog post written by Rejecting 300 that was about, where do you find motivation once it's fizzled out?

Basically, I am committed, I keep plugging along, whether I'm motivated or not. It's not as fun when you're not motivated, but it still gets the job done. I haven't been to the gym in forever, I've been lucky to have one day off a week. BUT, this past week I had some time to relax and this coming week I will have two days off IN A ROW! (I'll be out of town staying at my moms since last week didn't work out, but it's okay, she has a treadmill!).

I told Rejecting 300 that I was going to go to bed, and wake up the next day and hope that spark had returned. It didn't though. But, I stayed on plan, I tracked, and at the end of the night when Joey asked if I wanted to go out to eat, I said no, I'd had my cals. I must say I made myself proud. :)

Getting it back

Then today, I woke up WANTING to go to the gym. Which is stupid, my pain, which has been good for months, is starting to flare, but it might be because I'm less active lately. I know with fibro, if you don't use it you lose it, so today, I'm packing my bag and going to the gym before work!

Lunch for Schmucks!

Another motivating factor was seeing a friend yesterday I hadn't seen in years. He said I looked great, and that felt good, and I wouldn't mind more of those types of compliments so I need to stay on task. :) I think about slipping up and regaining it all and I can't help but wonder what people would say about me. I've definitely done it before, I'm sick of feeling like a disappointment and a let down.

Many of my readers tell me that I'm an inspiration, and I don't want to let them down. I want to be someone who can say "If I can do it so can you!" :)

So yesterday I went to lunch with this guy:

He's an author, his name is Nelson W. Pyles, one of my writerly friends, and he writes some crazy twisted horror stories. You should check out his website. Sometimes I'm shocked at how normal he seems with the stuff he writes! haha.

We went to Aladdin's for lunch, a middle eastern place, and I got the mujadara plate. Aladdin's has an allergen menu for those of you who might benefit from it, you just have to ask the waitress. This is listed on the menu as gluten free and vegan. yay!:

Anyhow, we had a nice (healthy) lunch, and a nice chat. It kind of renewed my spark in more ways than one. Yes I need to lose these last 15 lbs to reach my October 19th goal, and yes, I need to get to work on my novel, it's almost time to send it out for editing. Geebus!

In conclusion

I'm going to the gym today and will be having another on plan day!

P.S. For those of you who don't know, I have been nominated for Pittsburgh's most valuable blogger awards in the health category. I would appreciate your vote!

Also, don't forget to enter to win my Forks Over Knives Prize Package!:

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AnonymousAugust 21, 2011 at 2:10 PM
That's always a big one for me ~ too much publicity! When people start really gushing about how great I look, I immediately freak out and think about how gross they must have found me before. That and what happens if I gain it all back again? Does that mean I'm only good when I'm not fat? Then it starts a lot of madness and the scale goes back up again.

I have a few good Spark friends like you, but I kinda like flying under the radar. I'm struggling lately too in the same five pound range, up and down. The latest up is temporary due to TOM, but I'll be glad when I conquer that nasty 225 once and for all!
myguetschowAugust 23, 2011 at 7:01 AM
You got my vote!!!! :-)
MollyAugust 25, 2011 at 3:42 PM
Wonderful insights you've shared! And just the message I needed to hear - how did you know that? :-) I don't comment as often as I should but really I'm so very proud of you for all you have done and continue to do!

Oh and of course I voted for you! Good luck and let us know how it turns out! :-) ~ Molly

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