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What has been going on with me....?

Well, this is going to be a ranty blog.

I've once again been maintaining, but it's mainly because I'm not putting in the effort. You don't put in the effort, you do NOT see the results. Things have been really stressful lately and really I'm just glad I haven't gained. Work has been a little stressful, then friday I lost my wallet on the bus, my very expensive wallet full of my life (including i.d and house keys, yes, we changed the locks that night.)

I've been having trouble finding a bra that fits. For awhile I was wearing a 42 DDD, then a 40F, and though the 40F fit better than the DDD's, it still seemed big in the band. I remeasured myself today to find that I SHOULD be wearing a 38G, so I bought one and am finally feeling comfy.

I watched LaRhonda's episode of extreme makeover: weight loss edition tonight and it really lit a fire under my ass. It seemed like things weren't easy going but she kept  hitting those goals. What I wouldn't give to lose 100 lbs in a year let alone three months. I'd like to be down to 199 by October 19th, which will be 1 year and about 100 lbs from October 19th 2010. There are slip ups but I keep getting back up and trying again.

With the second job it is getting harder but I'm slowly figuring out how to make it all work.

I'm done eating for the day, I only went over by maybe 100 cals today, which is fine, tomorrow I will be spot on, and I'll be hitting the gym after work. My goal is to lose 2 lbs by next sunday, if not more ;) Another goal is to make it to the gym, at least 3 if not 4 times this week.

For those of you struggling along with me, we can do this.


  1. We can definitely do this. I've been struggling with the urge to binge lately and fighting that. I've been maintaining too, but I'll take it considering that I've been struggling.

    Sorry I haven't kept up as well as usual. I'm in that last six weeks of my job and it's our worst time of the year. With the positions they cut, it's been affecting me and making me even busier. I get so tired.

    Hope things are better since you vented! *HUGS*

  2. New follower here - just wanted to pop in and say hello. Congrats on your weight loss journey successes so far! I have recently begun my own journey. I love your blog and have enjoyed what I've read so far. I look forward to your future posts!


  3. it seems like we have the same blog post! lol.

    hope you're not giving up on the challenge! At least send in your minutes!

  4. renee, that's okay, busy busy!

    heather, thanks for stopping by! Sorry I haven't gotten back to you sooner, I've been so busy but am finally finding a way to work in some time. (boyfriend is out with friends, that helps. :P )

    amanda, I'm still in it!


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