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Building success

I've never been successful with weight loss. It's difficult to even try and imagine yourself a success at something that you've tried and failed so miserably at so many times in your life. It doesn't feel real. But, you've got to start somewhere.

I'm keeping a list of my small successes and milestones. I figure the only way to get to feeling like I am a success at this, is to keep track and give myself a pat on the back for even the smallest success. They will all add up.

1.) Remain binge free for 30 days-- CHECK! 
2.) Lose 20 lbs -- CHECK! 
3.) Make exercise a part of my life -- CHECK! 
4.) Stay 100% On Plan throughout Thanksgiving. -- CHECK! 
5.) Get back down to the weight requirement so that I can use the elliptical (250 lbs) -- 
6.) Get back to my (2nd) shocking high weight, 275 lbs-- CHECK! 
7.) Get back to my FIRST shocking high weight, 260 lbs! -- CHECK! 
8.) Remain binge free for ANOTHER 30 days! -- CHECK! (60 days down!) 
9.) Lose 12 lbs by my next gyne appt -- CHECK 
10.) Lose 15 lbs by my next pain doc appt -- CHECK! 
11.) Lose 5% of my body weight -- CHECK 
12.) Lose 10% of my body weight -- CHECK 
13.) Start using 5 lb weights by xmas-- Did not meet (health probs got in the way) 
14.) Stay 100% on plan through my birthday -- CHECK! 
15.) Stay 100% on plan through xmas -- CHECK! 
16.) Lose 15% of my body weight -- CHECK!
17.) Stay binge free another 30 days! (90 total) - CHECK!
18.) Stay On Plan 90 days -- CHECK!


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