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The Struggle is Real...

I haven't posted here in 2 years. I have lost about 40 lbs, it was more, prolly around 60, but I've recently regained some due to medication changes. BUT, I have the med thing under control now. I take haldol, which turns off my full signal. I started taking wellbutrin, which turns it back on? I don't know how these things work, dagnabbit!

Anyhow, I miss this place, I miss my readers. I've been living with my head in the sand for years. I feel lost, afloat on a sea of ranch dressing or something. I finally feel like I have some idea as to what I need to do. Again*

A few posts back, which to be fair, was years ago, I said I was going back to counting calories because even though I know I can't stick to it I had to do "something."  "Something" is not enough. These are SOME of the diets I have tried:

Slim fast
counting calories
atkins
south beach
keto
veganism (for health)
Extreme Low Calorie diets
Starvation
Counting calories
Juice fasts
Intuitive eating
Diet pills
Counting calories*

(Yes, I know that is on here 3 times, it's the only thing that seems to work, but I always STOP DOING IT. Why? Because it's tedious and tiresome and eating should not be this complex.)

That's probably just a handful. Ha.

I know many of you are here with me, we've all been there, feeling like we have tried it all, what else is there, short of surgery? (not an option I will consider ATM, most likely never will). I am feeling motivated though, but where do I put this energy? The other day I seriously considered shelling out 200$ on a fitbit blaze that I assure you I'll use for a week and then it will collect dust in the drawer with my fitbit flex. Yawn.

So instead of that, I spent 38$ on a set of portion control plates and a portion control pasta cooking basket/strainer. I'm not doing any fancy diets. I'm not buying anything high tech because I already know from experience it will. not. work. joining a gym and shelling out tons of money on a personal trainer that I stopped going to see after a few months didn't work either.

This is my plan, it's nothing too fancy schmancy. I'm going to eat less. I'll use my portion plates. I'll fill the biggest portion of the plate with veggies or fruit, and the other two smaller portions with grains/starches and protein. I'm going to eat ONE portion of pasta instead of 3. I am just at a point in life where I am fed up. I need to find something I can do FOREVER, and anything that doesn't meet that one basic criteria, buh bye. GTFO. So, no grand gestures, but small habits that will last a lifetime. That is the goal.

I'm not focusing on exercise right now as it's winter and I'm already in enough pain with my fibro. Focusing for now just on making healthier choices, eating out less, and smaller portions. The end. I think this is how most 'naturally thin' people live. haha. WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT!?

Also, I once again forgot this email login for a super long time. I think it's etched into my brain now, so I'll def be back, and hopefully often.

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  1. Like you I tried a lot of things, calorie counting helps the most, not willing to do fad diets anymore as they cause more weight problems in the end, pills don't work for me (except FenPhen which is now illegal) and I'm not willing to try more diets or pills. The only other drastic thing I will try is surgery. That's it. Good luck!

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