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On being normal

Before I say anything else let me just say...

I used to use blogger because I hated wordpress.

Now bloggers interface is a bit more like wordpress.



Anyhow...I'm doing good. I'm still on plan, exercising, I've started taking lyrica and working more hours. Things are going well. The pain is bad sometimes, tear inducing honestly, but...I hope the lyrica kicks in full force in the next few weeks as I increase the dose and I can start feeling better.

I am doing my pt. I'm eating well. I've been taking a banana and nuts with me to work for lunch and staying AWAY from the pizza place. I think I Should start juicing in the morning and taking it to work with me to drink throughout the day.

Oh btw, I had made a post a few weeks back about wanting to go to cedar point. I am an idiot. I can't go to cedar point because amusement park rides DESTROY MY BODY. When I went to kennywood last year I could only stay a couple of hours and it was so painful that evening/the next few days. No WAY could I ride for two days straight. Not sure what I was thinking.

Oh yeah, I was thinking that I'm a normal person without stupid barriers to doing normal things that other perfectly normal people do. Sorry, I'm frustrated. I just wish I could do things sometimes without thinking, how is this going to affect my body? Will I pay for this activity later on? If so, how much?  I just deleted a bunch of stuff I had written. It sounded so whiny.

Let's shorten my whining:

I have disabilities, physical and mental and they annoy the living piss out of me.

The end.



  1. ((hugging)) you while you pout because.... me too and I understand!


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