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Fluvia Lacerda....or, life's short, have fun.

So I just read this post about 'letting it all hang out' in the summer, by Fluvia Lacerda, a Brazilian plus size model. She. Is. Gorgeous.

First, let me say, my 'thinspiration' pics are always plus size models. I have no desire to be skinny. I want to ROCK my curves.

Anyhow, this is what the lovely Fluvia Lacerda looks like:


So she writes this blog post about how you should accept your fat body and don't care about the judgements from other people, etc, etc. I'm thinking to myself, she looks amazing, who is judging her? Then I google her and find a 'celebrity weight gain' site that is talking all kinds of smack on her 'chunky arms' and her 'expanding waistline'. I want to cry. Seriously. If you can look like THAT and still get insulted by these people (who are the equivilant to me, of frat boys yelling "fat bitch" at me from their porch) then I just hate this world. 

I ASPIRE to be as 'fat' and 'chunky' as Fluvia! I'm currently a size 20, she is a size 16/18......this is me when I was a size 16, on the right:


So, sometimes I'm my own inspiration, sue me. When I was a size 16 I wanted to lose 30 more lbs, but looking back I was really happy with myself. I will probably still aspire to get down to 190, but honestly, at 220 lbs I was thrilled with how I looked. 

I love Fluvia's blog post, but it doesn't really apply to me. I go out in a swimsuit, I have a thick skin. But it reminded me of when I didn't. When my shopping options were cut short because I was too terrified to wear a sleeveless type top. You would NOT have caught me in that dress above in 2001. I thought to myself, I don't have the RIGHT to wear something like that, I don't have the RIGHT to punish people by making them look at my stupid fat arms!

WHAT?!

I think I remember the first sleeveless shirt I wore. It was a layered tiered type bright red number. It had arm holes and all but the 'sleeve' stopped at the shoulder. I was terrified when I left the house. Every step I took through brotown was so scary, I was just waiting for someone to yell something nasty at me, the frat boys were almost always good for that. The day though, was uneventful. I was just another fat girl showing off her fat arms and no one looked at me twice about it. 

I know that some of you still feel this way, you haven't got the thick skin. But I say build that skin up because no matter what, you will never be good enough for SOMEONE. Someone out there will try and tear you down, don't let them. Life's short. Have fun. 

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Comments

  1. I love your curves! I definitely think there is a lot of fat bashing out there. I had to explain to my 11 y/o brother that being too thin is also unhealthy but the focus is never on that is it?

    I'm trying to instill in him a healthy body image mentality. He talks to me about how people get picked on at school all the time. Bullying is so terrible. Thankfully, I've been able to keep me positive.

    I think it's hard to control what other people say so I definitely agree with you about thick skin. You can condition yourself to deal with what the say. I've been teaching my brother that too :)

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  2. I want to let you know that I think you are so AWESOME!


    I so totally have paper thin skin and really do aspire to be more comfortable in it. I have not worn a sleeveless shirt in public since middle school (I'm 35 btw). I never wear a swimsuit in front of ANYONE outside of my immediate family. I have always felt like the fattest chick in the room even when I was 160# at 5'7"?! I am now nearly 300 and cry at the thought of that dillusional young woman that I was. I hope I can just get back under 200.

    Thanks for this fabulous post, and keep on doing what you're doing. You are such an inspiration.

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  3. I think you look incredible in both of the pictures you shared and If I were ten years younger...

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