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Back on the horse...building habits.

Okay, so, I'm tracking and exercising. Feeling good. I have another study appt in a month, they weigh me. I'm going to try not to weight myself more than once (at the two week mark) and then once at the month mark. I feel like obsessing on the scale is not a good idea for my mental state at the moment. Not that the scale obsession is EVER good. I just want to do the right things regardless.

I've come up with a few new recipes since I've been gone. There's a spicy mac n cheese and a pot pie and I will hopefully get my chili recipe up at some point. I wanted to do it in the fall but that didn't work out.

I've had a difficult winter. I got mad at my physical therapist, she was not respecting my boundaries on a certain issue, so I quit seeing her and stopped doing my PT altogether.I'm going to start that back up today. I've been struggling with my moods. It's seemed like I've been tweaking my meds every other month. I hate the effect the seasons have on me. Either way, spring came, mania came, I went off the wellbutrin and increased my abilify and am finally feeling like MYSELF again. Feeling good, ready to get back on track and ready to hit a nice stride soon.

I've been working on my book a lot lately. It's about half done. I hope to be finished by the end of the summer.  Thank you! I should probably start using it for this blog. *snicker*


Hope all you guys are doing well!


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