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So far, 'okay'.

Well, I haven't tracked the last few days but tried really hard to eat intuitively, but I already know from experience that won't work. So, here I am, back on logging everything.

It's for the best really.

I made a new friend recently, and she told me last night that she read my blog. She told me how motivational it was, and how I'm going through stuff and still trying so she has to at least give it a shot.

I hear those sorts of comments often and they never get old. Not in an ego type of way, but in a, "I have to keep pushing, there are people out there counting on me." Type of way. I don't want to be another blogger that can't keep the weight off and let's their blog sit around and collect dust leaving their readers wondering -what ever happened to that girl?

Anyhow, enough of that.

I started wellbutrin a little over a week ago, I had to take some time off work then cut my hours because of the negative impact it was having on my mental and physical health. On days I don't work it's not so bad, but when I do I find it so difficult to put on the smiley face and act like I feel okay. Acting like I'm not depressed and I'm not in boatloads of physical pain. I feel a little better this morning, it's sunny at the very least.:

I've been getting back to doing my physical therapy, which I slacked on when the depression first hit. I'm going to do all my stretches the max amount I'm supposed to. (four times a day) and I'll do the rubber balls on my calves every other day once the stretches help enough that I can tolerate doing the other stuff.

With my mood being the way it is, I guess now is a good time to try and really throw myself full force back into getting healthy. It'll give me something positive to focus on at least.


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