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One Year Anniversary and an update

Well, this has been an interesting year. One year ago today I believe, I gave up eating at the Chinese buffet. Joey and I talked about it and decided to do the same thing with mad mex. If I can cut out the buffet where I nearly LIVED then I can cut out mad mex.

This year has been full of ups and downs. If anyone tells you weight loss is easy (like a friend of mine has recently said. eyeroll.) They are wrong. It's hard work, and sometimes, there are set backs. Today marks my one year anniversary of deciding to change my life. yet my October Spark goal calender sits here empty. How sad.

For the last two months the docs have been tweaking my meds. Work has become more difficult and I stepped down as manager and cut my hours so I can be less stressed, and therefore, less insane. In the last two months, since the med tweaking and the craziness started, I've gained 10 lbs. TEN POUNDS. AUGH! The frustration makes me not want to leave the house. It's downright tragic. I worked hard to get those off. But, whatever, I've still lost about 70 lbs in a year, and that is a good healthy rate of loss I think.

I hoped to be at goal by next March, but maybe next summer is more realistic now that I am back on/and on a higher dose/of meds. It's making it far more difficult, even on a weight neutral drug it's difficult. I don't believe abilify makes me gain, but it makes it harder to lose. I have cravings I hadn't had in months when I went back on/raised my dose.

I'll be totally honest here and say that it didn't take me exactly 2 months to gain 10 lbs. I probably gained a few here and there for a month and three weeks, and then last week, when I crashed into a nasty depression, I spent a week binging and gained about 6 lbs. Actually, I believe my binging started exactly at my one year anniversary of NO BINGING. AUGH. But, it's just one of those things, you dust yourself off and you keep going. I'm still here, I'm still fighting.

Today I didn't have time to eat. I was doing some stuff, got busy and distracted. I had popcorn when I got home and had tofu and rice for dinner, and I think I'm done for the day. Maybe some fruit. later.

Anyhow, I just wanted to let you all know that I plan to kick off this second year with a serious bang. My meds are adjusted properly, my mood is fantastic, I'm having some pain issues, but hopefully cutting down at work will help with that.  Getting back to the gym soon. I have a good feeling about this year. I've learned a lot from my mistakes at the very least.

"Sometimes you have to fight a battle more than once to win it." Here I go, gettin' these pesky 10 lbs off!

p.s this is my 1 year anniversary of changing the way I eat, my 1 year blogaversary is January 10th. Look for a post then too though ;)

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  1. Happy Blogaversary! You are far ahead of where you were a year ago. And you are still here! Congratulations!

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  2. At least you're not a quitter and that's huge in my book! Congratulations on your blog anniversary. Here's to a successful and great second year and losing those 10 pounds!

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  3. 70 pounds is a HUGE accomplishment. I enjoy reading your blog... I hope you stay inspired to keep trying and keep writing. Good luck.

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