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...Maybe my legs are just a little stronger

So I feel like my struggles are finally coming to an end (for now!) Today a friend took me grocery shopping, we went to whole foods and I got lots of 'essentials' and not much 'extra' or processed stuff (like sauces, etc) I have recently slipped up due to not really having much of the food I need to eat. I've eaten dairy and gluten and my body is telling me to stop.

So, I'm listening. I did buy some daiya and some tofutti 'sour cream', for tacos, and to help me get off the dairy, I bought plenty of gluten free pasta and a giant bag of rice, along with lots of salad veggies and some spinach and potatoes.

So, my friend who took me grocery shopping expressed some interest in watching Forks Over Knives, the plant based way of eating documentary. It really got me excited to be eating healthy again. My goal is to lose 5 lbs by November 11th. (I'm going to a party and want to look a smidge better in my dress ;)

My doc has also agreed to lower my dose of one of my drugs that is causing weight gain/making it harder to lose, and so far we've gone down 5 mgs, I want to go down 10 more if I can, cuz I was still losing when I was only on 15 mgs. We are also increasing the wellbutrin and I'm hoping that helps with appetite supression, I've heard it can. I'm glad that we figured out that it was my stupid 'weight neutral' (my ass!) drug that was causing the gaining. I'm tracking everything I eat today and everyday, starting now, 100% of the time. I'm in less pain today, the weather is better, I might hop on my recumbent too.

I'm feeling very hopeful. Today I had my "Nothing to say but Mmmm" vegan alfredo and I ate it with baked tofu and it turned out fab. :)

Oh btw, I realized I'm not hungry all the time like I thought, sometimes when I get hungry my stomach BURNS, so I was mistaking the heartburn that the wellbutrin is causing for hunger. I need some stomach meds or something. augh.

Anyhow, I haven't felt this good or hopeful in months, I feel like the hill is a little less steep today, or maybe my legs are just a little stronger, but either way, this struggle is feeling less like a struggle and more like a small hurdle. Hopefully soon I'll be 100% in my groove. I need to keep healthy groceries in stock at all times. Letting the groceries get low just leads to trouble. :(


  1. Congratulations on getting "over the hump"!!

  2. Hope is a great place to be! I know what you mean about the groceries ~ I've gotten to the point where I freak out if I have no kale in the house. My body just plain needs it.

    I'm sure you'll feel better once you're fully vegan again. I had some baklava recently ~ which contains butter ~ and wow, did I ever feel it. I'm asking myself, why does my fibro suck today after being quiet for so many months. Ohhhhh...yeah. There was dairy in the baklava. It was dreamy, but I paid for it!


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