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Firsts: or, today I have hope

So last night I was reading through some of my old blogs. My very first blog post here, "Sometimes you have to fight a battle more than once to win it." is really ringing true right now.

Just a little reminder for myself, to keep me plugging along:
Sometimes I think these 'reminders' are what have kept me from regaining!

This is a battle isn't it? It's worth the fight though. Today I filled out my spark goal tracking calender and I tracked breakfast and lunch already, and I have about 555 cals left for dinner.

I have a long day ahead, and I had another calf spasm last night so my legs hurt still, but I'm about to do some pt, and tonight I'm going to jump on the recumbent. I'm preparing, mentally more than anything, for Monday, when I start the Biggest Loser Challenge 19 with my sparkbuddies in white lighting. :) Good luck ladies!

Anyhow, the challenge is 10 weeks, and I hope that I can report a nice loss back in the next few weeks after it starts.

My mood is doing better, my fibro could be worse, today is payday, my lunch is made and ready to take to work, breakfast was good, today is going to be a good day. Picking up some extra hours at work too. :)


  1. Cheers! Hoping you have a fabulous day. :-) Thanks for sharing your war log...I'm fighting the same battle and it does take a fight to gain some ground! Go YOU!!!

  2. You are very inspiring to me. This is real life and you write it as such, I haven't read one post by you that feels sugar coated and I like that. I love the honesty that exudes from your posts. You put it all out there good, bad and ugly. To many times I have tried getting into a blog by someone going through weight loss and its only showcasing the good things. This is a HARD road and I appreciate your willingness to lay it all out, not just your successes. You have much to be proud of! Much love from a grateful reader and fellow weight loss battler.

  3. Good luck on your challenge - you are an inspiration! You look absolutely beautiful and healthy! I'm at the point right now where I am sitting here contemplating the fact that my goal is to lose half my current body weight and I'm finding it hard to even know where to start. I have made some good changes - but I've not seen much of a change on the scales since I started this journey in November. Right now I just keep gaining and losing the same 5 pounds over and over it seems... And I'm tired...

  4. Oh honey, you're so gonna rock this thing in the long term! Sometimes the short term stuff happens, but you've got this. Always good to see your inspirations!

  5. Okay everyone! you're gonna make me cry! Thanks so much for the compliments and the good luck wishes and everything else! I'm so glad I have such awesomey readers. Thanks again!

    kassie: I try!!!! ;)

    heather: It's tough, stick it out though, so worth it. I noticed the other day EVERYTHING about my life is better, my mood, my health, etc, when my eating and exercise is in order. Why does doing the right thing SUCK so hard sometimes?

    renee: Thanks! :D hugs


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