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All or nothing

Today is one of those days where I'm thankful to have an all or nothing mentality. It's one of those "all" days.

On days where I'm more ' nothing', like I have been for the last few months, I'm not quite so thankful for such a mentality.

How many of you have this mentality? You throw yourself into getting healthy 110% and then once you start to slip you don't watch at all? What causes this? Augh. I wish I could break this pattern. Although I must say my 'all' did last 10 months, and my 'nothing' only lasted 3 months or so. I'm spending more time in the 'all' than ever before and less time in the 'nothing' than I ever have. I've gone YEARS in the 'nothing' with only a few weeks in the 'all' zone.

It's such an odd head space. But, here I am, just trying to make it work to my advantage.

The other day Joey and I went grocery shopping. We are all stocked up on healthy food, and I have that new vegan fire and spice cookbook. We're both off today, so I'll be making both lunch and dinner from the book. I'm excited to be trying new things. :)

For breakfast I had a huge mutant gala apple, some almonds and a cup of almond milk. I did 20 mins on the bike last night, along with my PT and today I'm feeling great. I'm sure the sun being out isn't hurting either. A girl at work had mentioned how doing nothing was going to set me back more than 'resting' would with the fibromyalgia. I know she's right from watching others suffer, and I know laying around in pain will only cause more pain, so I struggle, but I go on and do it, and I know I'll be better for it.

Today, I am thankful for the 'all' mentality. Are you an all or nothing type of person too? 


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