For months I forgot which email I used to log in here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG. I am so sorry for being gone so long! Things have been happening here. In my last post I said I'd be counting calories but I just can't. I CAN'T. I mean I can, but I know I can't stick to it for the long term, so I am just trying to make better choices, stop eating when I'm full and I haven't weighed myself in MONTHS. Joey hid the scale, for both of our sake since we have scale dependent self esteem!

So, some Non Scale Victories that I've had since my wedding last March 9th, on our 19 year anniv.

1.) My face is finally starting to look a little thinner:

BEFORE: (at my wedding, with a friend, not sure why everything looks so shiny here)

DURING:

2.) My body is finally following suit:

BEFORE: (Me getting my ring from my best woman at my wedding lol)

DURING: (me rocking this dress, attending a burlesque show!:)

3.) My underwear that I had that were the biggest size I could find for my HUGE hips, are actually fitting now. They used to roll down, and now they stay put. Which is way more comfortable in case you were wondering. NO PICS! LOL.

4.)My swimsuit that I wore to the beach last year is much more flattering this year.

5.) My wedding/engagement rings are getting loose.

Anyhow, that is where I am with my progress. I hope to be writing more now that I can log in! :P

NOTE: I have no desire to bust out the scale any time soon. I'm feeling really good just doing things the way I am. :)

Also, going back to veg!

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