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I miss you guys, or: Weight gain and obstacles

Wow. It's been since MAY. and before May, I was already struggling.

I've had some issues. For one, I switched birth control. I was trying out one of those ones where you only get it every 3 months. I was getting mine every 6 weeks. It just wasn't working. It also gave me the worst PMS style cravings every minute of every day. If I could have eaten a deep fried, chocolate covered, ice cream topped pizza every day I would have. It was pretty awful.

Then, to make matters worse, I went back on lyrica (weight gainer). I stayed on it way past the point where it actually worked. I stopped being gluten free and I even ate dairy because my pain had gotten better. Now my pain is back, the drug isn't working, and it never EVER worked as well as being gluten free and vegan did.

Also, I was searching for my first full time job since 2005 when I went on disability. I have now worked my way OFF disability and have gotten a new full time job as an optician. I'm VERY happy at my job. It's great. :) It took months of stress and (stress eating) and searching and SEARCHING to find my new job but I finally have.

Now, I'm settled at work, I switched back to my old birth control, and I'm currently weaning myself off of the lyrica, and have a job with a fridge and a microwave. I made a big batch of vegan chili last night, went grocery shopping and bought plenty of gluten free pasta, rice, gf flour, veggies and fruits and tofu and I am READY and willing to get back on track with my gluten free/vegan diet. I have gained so much weight with all these issues. I can not wait to get back to where I was. I didn't gain it all back, but it was getting to be a little too close for comfort.

Now, I've put all the building blocks I need in front of me and have removed my worst obstacles. It's time to get on track and stay there!


  1. SO glad to have you back! I'm definitely looking forward to your posts on your journey forward and a MAJOR CONGRATS on the new job :-D


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