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Always trying....

So, I haven't had much to say lately, mainly because it's been a struggle and I feel like you guys are probably sick of hearing me whine.

I'm sick of hearing me whine.

It's been about a week or maybe a bit more, that I've been doing well. I haven't been weighing,  right now I don't think it's that important. It's more important to get my eating on track than it is to beat myself up for not losing or for gaining .5 ounces or whatever.

I've decided to set my goal low. Every 6 months I get weighed and blood work and all that for my study I am doing, and my goal is to lose 20 lbs in the next six months. I know it's slow going, but I think it's all I can handle at the moment. I'm doing well with my food, drinking fresh juices, I think tomorrow I will start tracking again. For the last week I've just been trying to make better choices.

btw, I had my blood work (cholesterol, thyroid, sugar, etc) checked in january and I haven't been back in to the doc to get my results, but when there is something amiss (Last time my cholesterol was 8 points too high) I get a letter from my PCP telling me to make an appt to talk about it. This time, no letter. I can't wait to see what my results are. I've been taking fish oil to help lower it.

Anyhow, just wanted to let you know that I'm still around, still fighting the good fight, struggling, but still trying. Always trying.

Will write more next week when I've had some tracking under my belt. Not sure when I'll bother weighing.


  1. 20 lbs in the next 6 months is TOTALLY doable. You CAN do it. YOU CAN!!!!

    It's actually one of my goals (20 lbs in 6 months). We can do it together.


    Chin up! YOU CAN DO IT! Now get out there and hustle, hustle, hustle and show your body who is boss!!!!!

  2. Sounds like we are in the same boat! I've been struggling too ~ in my case, it's being around a bunch of restaurants that I haven't had in Canada for the last nine years.

    Like you, I am just focusing on being on track, not what the scale says. We can both get into Onederland, and we're gonna! It just might take a while, and that's okay! WOOT!


  3. Please know that you always have my support and I would much rather "hear you whine" than not hear from you at all. Sorry I have not been around to read but with the new goals I have set for myself, I hope to be around more for support but also to be a supporter! Hope you are well, friend.


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