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Turning things around -- happy new year!

The holidays hit me hard, and I feel like such a failure, so here I am, tail between my legs, promising a new start. again.  but if there is one thing that is true about me, it's that I have a hard time giving up.

Since thanksgiving I have gained...12 lbs. 

Last year I made it through the holidays and even lost some weight. I know that today, is just another day, and that the only extra meaning it may have is meaning that we ascribe to it. But, today is new years day and I got a new healthy lifestyle calendar for Christmas and it feels like if ever there was a time for renewed energy to focus on weight loss now is the time.

Unless I want to start spending money on new clothes, I'd best get on it. I threw out all my old 'fatter clothes' and I'm pretty broke so a new wardrobe is not in order. It's time to get my butt in gear.

Joey has gained weight too, we have a tendency to gain/lose together, as I'm sure is no surprise. No more eating out for awhile, as I am finding it difficult to make the healthier choice. At home it's so much easier.

On a more positive note, even though I gained over the holidays, they were quite nice. For thanksgiving I had friends over for a nice Thanksgiving dinner. I made nut roast, mashed potatoes and sweet potatoes. For Christmas I went home to see my fam and it was so nice. I got some great gifts, my fave being my new 12 piece multi-clad stainless steel pro cookware set. *faints*

I will be using it to cook healthy meals at home. I have been exercising more lately, and since I'm back on lyrica for the winter, I'm able to do more of that. Yesterday was a healthy day. I stayed on plan and made Nigerian peanut soup for dinner, low cal and delicious.

I guess there's not much to say, except I hope you guys will stick around and see where this journey takes me. I haven't had this hard of a time in a long while. The one good thing about all this is that there is no binge problem. I haven't. In a pretty long time. It's just been a series of unfortunate and unhealthy decisions. One after another, for the last few months.

It's time to turn this around.

275 and 226, the smallest pic I have of me (this time around). I will get back there.


  1. I am glad you enjoyed your holidays Alicia. As you can see from my blog post, I am there with you. we can do this.

  2. Keep it up, girl! You can do it. You can do 12 lbs in no time...not that you ever want to go back, but I'm back at nearly the same weight I was at when I started 2 years ago and it only took me 7 months to gain 30lbs back. Two years to lose it just to gain it all back in a quarter of that time and it wasn't even close to my goal. Cheering you on always!!!

  3. Lisa: It was nice, and we can. :)

    christi: Sorry to hear about your regain too. This year will be better. :D

  4. I am here with you, Spark sister! We'll both work off our gains, and then tread a new part of the path. Happy 2012!

  5. Hi! I'm a new reader (I found your blog via XGFX), and I will most certainly keep reading. Good luck to you in this new year! Take care, Cee

  6. C.S: Welcome! I searched your email on facebook but couldn't find you to add you to the group. Add beyond willpower on fb and then I'll add you to the group. :D

  7. Wow, get back on track. I like your style at any size, very rockin'. I hope you find what it takes to turn this all around and succeed. Happy New year!


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