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Isa does it, and so do I.

So, I haven't posted in I don't know how long. I've gained a ton of weight. It took me a good long time to realize this, but when I lost all my weight, and it was seemingly so 'easy' (in comparison to the last couple years), I was NOT taking my abilify. For a long time I gained steadily while taking it. Unfortunately my docs seem to think it's a case of being happy and fat or thinner and crazy. It's as if, to them, there is no middle ground.

I recently started taking Wellbutrin and it has managed to curb my crazy abilify induced appetite. My weight has been about the same give or take five lbs up or five lbs down, for the last month or two. These are the first months I have not gained a significant amount of weight since going back on abilify.

Also, since everything seemed so hopeless, I stopped being gluten free and vegan. I got the new Isa Does It cookbook for xmas (vegan, with gf options) and I plan to get back to a gf vegan diet TODAY. My fibro is better than it was last year, but I am hoping that the gf helps it even more this year. Winter is a difficult time for me.

I am trying to set myself up for success.

1.) Eating only when hungry.
2.) Stopping when full
3.) Hopefully staying on the wellbutrin indefinitely (if I can handle staying on it in the spring :(
4.) Buying groceries early (before I run out of food) and often (So I don't eat out because we don't have groceries.)
5.) Packing my lunch for work.
6.) Eating out no more than once a week.

In other news, I am getting married to my LONG TIME bf on March 9th. It will be our 19 year anniversary that day and I am hoping to lose at least 20-30 lbs before that date. At my current size it should not be difficult, because I'm big I will probably lose relatively quickly if I stay on plan and follow the guidelines above.

I didn't want to post anything here until I lose weight. But it's one of the many things I want to do and dont' feel like waiting until I'm thinner to do it. I've got to live for the now. Maybe posting will help. You never know.

Wish me luck.


  1. Congratulations on getting married come March, that's wonderful! It's so great to celebrate love like that. :) you can definitely lose the weight before then! I'm cheering for you!

  2. Congrats on your upcoming marriage. Glad to hear that your weight has been stable and now you have the motivation, the tools and the right mindset to take the next steps! Good luck!


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